Am I the only one out there not to have gentlest of feelings towards Christmas time? I know that is not very glamorous to say and to write (all other fashion bloggers I follow around the world seem to have a blast this time of the year, with glitters and parties always and everywhere) but that’s the way it is and I cannot fake it. December stresses me a lot, it’s not my fave time of the year at all (sorry, parents, can’t help it). When will I ever be able to enjoy festivities in a carefree way? If you’ re like that, please be in the know that I envy you so so much. And then…the topic of presents, my boyfriend asked me what I want. What should I want, dear Santa? Apart from a ridiculous amount of bags, shoes and clothes (who doesn’t, after all?) I want, I desire, I long for the most precious and difficult thing (for me) to have and to enjoy: personal satisfaction. Especially if you’re forever unsatisfied like me (in which case, please permit me, you have all my sympathy), living in a perennial research of doing better and better and better. So hard, too hard. And truly exhausting. Should I say one big thing that this year 2014 has thought me I would surely say that nothing is forever, for good and for bad. And I know that is no big news, the world works like that but I stil hadn’t experienced such stuff in a sudden, personal and hard way like this time (I have lost my job). So I have been taught this lesson and hopefully I am (quickly) learning the difficult art of being patient for exciting news to arrive soon and in the same time to enjoy life a little bit more, because nothing cures bad times better than the memories of a joyful day when you decided to kick your absence of satisfaction in the ass.
So, I have allowed me some time for strolling around Milan looking for Mr. Santa. And while I was sure to find glamour on every corner (well it’s Milan after all, the Italian capital of fashion, right?) I was left surprised it was not like that. This “less is more” and low profile Christmas approach that I have seen in the city where I am living felt like a constant reminder that nothing is due, you have to carefully see to find what you’re looking for to be happy and – why not – satisfied.
All pictures by me